2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: Whew what a day? This is will be a good time for me to sleep. I hope my cousin is ok though. Oh well it ended on a happy note anyway.*Falls asleep still thinking about all the stuff that's happened*

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *refuses to get up the bed is so comfy and she just got to deep sleep*

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: You will die! *feels a terrible pain than it is gone.*

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *Falls out of bed* OUCH! WHAT A RUDE WAKE UP CALL! A simple good morining would do nicely.*climbs back into bed and lays down again.*

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: Shadow darts in than calms

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *I will die. Funny that's the first actual threat I've gotten, but tries to go back to sleep but can't so I just lay here* This is becoming very interesting indeed.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: Shadow pads over lending you comfort

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: Oh hello Shadow. Did I wake you?*pets him a little on the head and under the chin.*

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: No.get some rest unless you wish to save your brother from the embarrassing stuiatuion he is facing

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: No he is on his own when it comes to that. I can't seem to sleep right. How's Daona?

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: Sleeping she has bad dreams....I don't fully trust her.

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *sits up* what you think she's up to something? Or do you think she isn't who she says she is?

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: I don't know I just since something ius wrong

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: Hmm. Well Esire was destoried. But maybe something else is going on? *lays down* I'm sorry to keep you up shadow.You should sleep too.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: Curls up on carpet and closes eyes

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: Cheeky kitty. *manages to fall into a light sleepy but feels cold so I shiver.*

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *I hear a loud thump but I try to ignore it then I toss and turn. But the echoing name Lucificer's little Lily causes sweat to appear. But I face it and calm down sort of.*

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *YOU KNOW I WOULD LIKE TO SLEEP!Pulls cover and pillow over head*

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: Shadow places his paw on you to help calm you

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *It shocked me at first but it relaxes me then I fall into another peaceful sleep Shadow is so sweet but he seems to have very human thoughts for a cat. oh well stays asleep.*

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: Shadow turns into a kitten and curls up on your chest

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *snuggles with the furry feeling*

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: it will be all right

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: will it truly? *still asleep but sometimes talks in her sleep. Wait am I snuggled against Shadow? Oh dear I hope I don't crush him.*

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "You won't crush me."

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *wakes up and looks at shadow with a curious look*

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "AreYou all right?"

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: Your voice sounds so familiar. But I haven't seen him in years ever since his family moved. I'm all right.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: Shadow: "what do you mean?" *raises his head to look at you*

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *shakes head* Never mind it's nothing. I'm being too curious.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "No...tell me, you need to stop avoiding painful memories it will only fester and you will sufer in the long run, so tell me.Please"

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: It isn't painful it's just close to impossible. He was a friend of the family but he was about 4 years older then me. I had the biggest crush but he never knew. Because I knew I was too young for him but I did love doing things for him so that I could see him *blushes and giggles.* I didn't really talk to him. But he moved away and so I had to move on.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "W...what was his name?"

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: His name was Reseno Tackinike.*eyes sparkling for a little while but fades* He's probably married by now though. He was in a warrior family and his mother was in my mother's coucil.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "So you had a crush on m....on him."

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *nods and laughs* It sounds so foolish though. I hope he has a happy life. Anyway when ever I would look at him, dad gave me a behave look, and I didn't want my father angry at me. I was also shy but still loved the sound of his voice. Ah I'm sorry, didn't mean to get all mushy. I don't show that side often.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "I..I think I..he liked the sound of your voice too." *Hesitates as thoe wishing to say more.*

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *laughs* No he never gave any indication. The few times I was included in the conversation with Dad and Reseno was very brief and ended with me having to go get something for the both of them. He only told dad I was a cute little girl.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: *Looks down for a moment* "P..perhaps he was trying to follow orders and remain noble....perhaps he wanted to be with you too....but wasn't allowed."

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: I probably will never know. Your voice just reminded me of him and a time when our family wasn't in well in not as big turmoil.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "There is a reason for that." *mutters and you barely hear him.*

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: anyway why did my brother give you guard duty over me?

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "I....asked him to...he was looking for someone he could trust..he knew they would come."

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: So Esire is really destoried then. Isn't it?

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: *Looks down.* "Yes....and the little ones too." *sadly says.*

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: My brother has someone that's after him because my father sold him. I would think he's the one that needs guarded.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "He want's you to be gaurded......your father is truly sorry..he....tried to........."

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: my brother is just as stubborn as dad. I don't think I'm too much a threat for the evil ones. I know dad is sorry. The question remains is, what am I going to do with Daona? Things are going to get intense here.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "I know..your father tried..never mind I shouldn't trouble you."

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: You need to tell me. I have to digest a lot of information. I need to know what are you hidding from me. My father tried to do what?

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "You..r father tried to....impale himself!...and....."

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: *feels pale but stands firm* And what? Did he make another deal?

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "I....can't tell you...it would be to painful."

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: very well I'll trust your judgement. I wish I could've told Reseno how I felt at least. But can't win them all.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "I...can tell you that there was no other deal."

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: All right thank you.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "I wish I could speak to you about the other part." *says sadly.*

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: I won't put you in an uncomfortable position. I just hope my sister is still safe. Don't worry about it.

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "I...don't know if she is. I was....busy when your brother found me....he saved me."

2007-01-20 [loonygirl2005]: Oh so are you repaying a debt?

2007-01-20 [Silver Moon]: "NO! I made this choice!" *sounds insulted.*

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: Forgive me shadow. *looks down and looks out the window feeling like a fool to even start this conversation.*

2007-01-21 [Silver Moon]: "It is all right I am sorry for yelling. The only part of this
I did not chose is......the curse." *quietly says*

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: *still stares out the window confused on why my heart is still beating like it did when I was 10. shakes my head furiously dispelling the feeling.* It's ok I can be stubborn. You sometimes have to bend my arm to get me to me to let a subject go.

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: {evil cat sprite voice in my head} "Who would love a loser like you? Get real your family has sins a mile long. You have evil in your heart. Aren't you affraid of what you can do? If your brother was able to turn into a complete beast think of what you could be."

2007-01-21 [Silver Moon]: "I....I can't take it anymore! I know why you are reacting the way you are. I.....am...or was...."

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: *no not again. tears form because the sprite has a minor point but I'm still facing to the window but knows the truth* You were Reseno weren't you?*states this in a distant voice that almost don't sound like my own.*

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: {Evil cat sprite still talking in my head} "You will end up exactly like your brother. You will hurt everyone you care about, and Reseno will abandon you again."

2007-01-21 [Silver Moon]: "I.....was.I am sorry. This was the price I played for refusing the warlord." *sounds sad and brushes against you soothingly.*

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: *pets you but still seem distant* {evil cat sprite} "You know I do make a point lily. Love only belongs to those deserving and powerful. Do you really think you're anything? You are just a worthless tool."

2007-01-21 [Silver Moon]: "Don't listen to that..thing! you are worth a lott to me and your friends!

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: *tears fall and turns to look at you* that thing has a point what...what...if...I..turn evil?....I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN! I DON'T WANT ANYONE TO GET HURT BY MY HANDS! *sinks to the floor and hold the knees* I'd probably wish for one of you to kill me like my brother did.

2007-01-21 [Silver Moon]: "You won't...I won't let that happen..and you have a pure heart you are good...and I love you!"

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: *snaps up and looks at you blushing but pale* You...you don't mean that... Reseno...can I still call you that or would you rather I still call you shadow? Anyway weren't you ment or arranged to marry a princess of the nothern country?

2007-01-21 [Silver Moon]: "Call me whatever you want.I do mean it, I always wanted to be with you." *places a paw on your leg.*

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: but...what about Princess Azulea? A few months after I was in the university I got an invitation to your wedding. It was from that princess. I refused to go because one I had no way to get there. Two I wasn't ready to face you yet.*still not believing what I had heard*

2007-01-21 [Silver Moon]: "That...was my father's ..choice I .....ran that is why....I am still alive......becouse I was a coward!" *Looks away in shame.*

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: *a smile appears on my face* No you made a choice to live your own life. That is a brave choice I'm the one who the coward running away from home after my father's death. *pets you again* But you didn't really know me that well...how can you be in love with me?

2007-01-21 [Silver Moon]: "They...would have killed you. They want you dead!Becouse of your spirit and.......I spied on you."

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: Even so...I was still running.*smirks and pets you behind the ear to get you to agree with me.* WHAT YOU SPIED ON ME!? I knew you had an evil streak but I didn't think you'd go that far.

2007-01-21 [Silver Moon]: "I.....did. If it makes you feel better I stayed away while you washed or dressed." *sounds embarassed*

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: *laughs to hide her growing panic* Oh well you didn't miss much then. Is there a way I can change your mind?

2007-01-21 [Silver Moon]: "No.I am fixed on you.It is morning are you hungry?" *Changes the subject*

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: I am kinda...but I need to a breath of fresh air before I go to eat. What about you Reseno? I'm sure you're a little hungry also even if you are a cute fur ball. *smirks sounding more like myself*

2007-01-21 [Silver Moon]: "Is that...a compliment? And Risika and Roke may be in the dining hall, I am kinda hungry."

2007-01-21 [loonygirl2005]: *doesn't answer and walks out leaving Reseno curious by doing my mother's famous knowing/flirty wink heading to the grounds just to get fresh air*

2007-01-21 [Silver Moon]: Bounds out of the room wanting to follow but heads to the dining hall instead.